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Is it too late to wish?
I hope it's not.

Happy New Year!
Hello 2011~

Many things happened throughout the past years.
Sadness, happiness, anger, jealousy...
Let them passed, this is a new year and it marks a new beginning in our lives.
I hope everything's going well this year, not much troublesome. :)

I felt like wanted to travel again. Isn't it nice to travel around the world.
I'll travel around the world one day IF I am a billionaire. :D
Well, a new year...
I am going to start searching part time jobs now.
Currently I found a job at a tuition center. RM600++ per month.
*sniff* Isn't it a bit little?
But the transportation fee is free, the center fetches me to work and back from work.
Then that's okay I guess.
Whatever it is, I just need $$$. Do you know how important it is???

A new year, I still can't figure out what course am I going to take.
The intake is on March and I still not yet decide. Damn.
And... you know I hate people who don't reply my messages. It's irritating you know.
If you feel that my messages irritate your eyes, please do tell me.
If you don't tell me, how will I know?!
If I am irritating your nerves, TELL ME too.

Well, I am going out later to Old Town~ :D
A short gathering with my lovely friends before the time when we seldom meet again arrives.



Signing off.
Bye bye~

Relief

I HAD FINISHED MY EXAM!

Yay, my exam ended yesterday.
First day of the exam was like hell nervous.
I went to the toilet quite a number of times.
Sigh, I didn't prepare well.
So, for me, this time was QUITE difficult.
But phewwww, I had managed to go through everything. :)

The last science subject was biology.
After the biology test, it was like totally over for me. Haha
Last subject was yesterday, chinese paper.
Well, paper 2 was uhm...hard?
Yeah, hard.
Paper 1 was the essays. And I simply wrote something crap.
Which paper was the hardest?
I think... it was the chinese paper 2. (--,)

Alright, no exam topic anymore.
Facebook is really popular among everyone now right?
A few days ago, I saw that sad news about Alviss.
After his case, those idiots wanted to follow his route.
"I am counting down. 12.00a.m. say goodbye to the world."
"I don't want to live anymore."
"Sorry, my beloved family. take care"
"I didn't plan to do it today. Tomorrow is the day."
You know, all these sentences made me felt so annoyed.

Guys and girls, If you plan to die, go ahead.
If you don't care about your family's feeling, if you don't care about your family's love to you
You want to die, go ahead.
Just because you don't have a relationship or you had just broken up with your partner,
it doesn't mean that world is going to end.
The actions that you idiots are going to do make me feel sick.
Remember, always love yourself.
And...commit suicide right, after you died, don't you ever think about going to heaven.
No such thing.
Think about your future and think about your family.



Oh yeah. And...

Happy Birthday~ Khai Ling! :D

-Signing off-

Love

You're the first thing I think of
Each morning when I rise
You're the last thing I think of
When I close my eyes


You're in each thought I have
And every breath I take
My feelings are growing stronger
With every move you make


You're an angel from above
who takes away my pain
My love for you is so strong
It's always just the same


You're the miracle in my life
Who can always make me smile
Just knowing that you care
Makes my life worth-while


You've touched my heart and soul
Which you have from the start
Your warm soft words
Will never leave my heart


You are everything I want
You're so pure and true
I love you with everything I have
And I love everything that you do.


- Sarah

All the time, I am just having the damn confusion in myself.
I am struggling between good and evil. The good side tells me "Let it be."
The evil side tells me "I hate her because she likes him."
Slowly, I let the good side to take over me.
Because I don't think I have the ability to grab him away from her and I hate grabbing and snatching people's love ones.

I shouldn't like him, I know I shouldn't like him.
And this is definitely not the time to like him.
Someone like you, I don't deserve to like.
Whenever I face you, my heart just jump out.
So, I don't dare to face you again.

Whatever I said is meaningless now...
Because you'll never turn your back to look at me.

Signing off.

17th Birthday

HEY, *waves*

Saw the pic? 'Like' it on FB. Hehe =]


Well, today is my birthday :D
Turn 17 y.o. today. D:

Friends, thanks for everything.
Esp Yvonne because she created a birthday experiment! xD
Thanks for those who wished me Happy Birthday in FB.
Thanks to those who bought me presents.
Thanks to my mom who gave birth me on the Halloween Day and
so I get to celebrate both events on the same day every year. :))))
THANKSS~

Wish you guys have a great day
&


HAPPY HALLOWEEN DAY!

Lost and...lost

HELLO, readers~

I went to my dad's hometown today.
I think I slept almost 12hours today? Lol. Couldn't help it, too tired.
Well, I checked my wallet today and I lost RM20. T___T
Having a heartache till now, RM20 for me is still a large amount. D:


I went to night market at daddy's hometown. :)
The things there were like SO CHEAPPPP compare to KL.
When I say cheap, I do mean it's reallyy cheap.
I bought a pair of high heels and clothes.




High heels - RM15 (at the beginning but the seller raised to RM20 due to a sudden crowd -.-)
Clothes - RM15 & RM25

For me, they are nice and cheap.
But for you, I don't know. =]
I am going to wear them tomorrow?


By the way, by the way~
I am going to KL Convention Centre for an UK education fair with my friends.

Guess that's all.
Goodbye and goodnight. :D

Helpless

Was it my fault?

Believe, needs a big courage to own it.
"I believe what I heard." "I believe what I saw." "I believe in you."
All these, just seem so fake to me.
The reason I am so MOODY these few days is I am starting to hate myself.

Let me tell you what happened.

-On that day, I came back to school. I was happy for no reason. When I was taking my lunch, a sudden phone call scared me off. They said, he fell down. At first, I thought it was just a minor injury or something. However, as I reached his house. He sat on the sofa, in a subconscious state.
We asked him, "How did you fall?". He did not answer. He fell down since 3-4hours ago and no one discovered it!

We then hurriedly took him to the nearest hospital. The doctor said there were 2 blood clog in his head, one was quite a long time ago, another would be probably just occur. And the useless hospital told us that he was needed to transfer to another hospital because they did not have complete scanner to scan his brain or whatever. He was lying in the ambulance, saw us, smiled a bit. I thought his smile told us that he was quite okay.

After transferring him to another hospital, he was placed in the HCU (I think) where only 2person are allowed to go inside. Everyone of us took turn to visit him and I was the last one. You know, hospitals are cold, freezing cold. I saw him, lying on the ward, with those wire connected here and there. I pitied him. He seemed so tired. After that day, he was transferred to a normal ward. Almost everyday, we visited him, he slowly became healtier. Until one day, he couldn't remember all of us, couldn't talk, couldn't write... Everyone broke down into tears. I controlled, I managed to control but till his sickness has gotten worse; until she asked him who was I, he only knew to nod his head. I looked down on my phone, pretended to play games but I was crying. Luckily, the doctor said that was just temporary because of the used of medicine and his salt level. Slowly, I saw improvement in his condition. He finally talked and asked me, "You just finished your tuition?". Satisfied.

His condition seemed to improve a lot. It was time for me to prepare my trial exam. One day, it was when I came back from school again. My mom told me he was in comma. I was shocked! Why suddenly in comma? I blinked back my tears, kept telling myself he'll be alright. At 3something in the afternoon, there was another phone call. My mom turned and said, "Hurry up and pack whatever books and things. We're going to the hospital. Call your dad! He...cannot wait any longer..." From what she said, I knew, I totally understood. Really, my tears wouldn't listen to me. We rushed to the hospital, everyone was there already. All I could see was he lying on the ward, no more response... HE PASSED AWAY. I couldn't believe it. On the following day was my first day of exam. My eyes were wet and swollen. I cried for the whole day.

On the funeral day, I felt so sorry because I had exam. If it wasn't so important, I would want to go, I would DEFINITELY want to go. Still, I went on that night. I saw him through the coffin. This time, I smiled. I forced myself to smile. The next day, he was sent to be buried. I was absent because of exam too. Exam, exam, exam. ---

I just felt so helpless on that moment. I should have chat with him, talk to him more. I regret. The he I mentioned just now, I guess you know who?
Yeah, my grandpa.

I remember those childhood memories when I was used to ride on his bike. He fetched me to buy newspaper, buy bread... And I used to climb his back, lol actually I climbed his back to jump on to the other side.

I can't write anymore, I am afraid I can't control myself again...

End

I miss you, grandpa.

Feelings

What are your true feelings?

I've been really down this few days though I looked happy in school. Never look at the outer side. Lol. Actually, I don't really know WHAT EXACTLY HAPPENED to me.
Examination is coming, pressure increases.
I totally hate EXAM, really.

Other than that, I seem to be a failure to fulfill my ambition to become a psychologist. Nah, because I am not good in advising people. I know how to but they seem not giving me response. Lol
So, I fail in everything. Trial papers weren't so good nor bad. At least I got some improvement...? (because of tips. -.-) I hope the real exam I can get higher marks...? Hope so. :)

No feeling for you.

Lately, something really bothering my mind and I still can't figure out what's that.
Okay, I cried (more like sniffed actually) this morning. Don't ask me why. I only tell to those whom I ah-hem... really best friends. Haha, sorry if I didn't tell you the reason.
Don't worry about me, I am okay. =]
As you can see in my FB status. "Confusion, jealousy, desperation... everything taking place in me."
And yeah, it's true.
I wonder...ah, nothing.
Maybe it's time for me to analyze myself.


End.
Look forward to my next update.
Visit my ameblo too, if you know Japanese. :P
http://ameblo.jp/anneszeyen/

Is this the way.

I am here, well I am here. How many days or months I didn't update my blog?
Don't count. I know, many months. (--,)
That tiring trial exam finally finished, that's why I AM HERE, get it? :D

Oh well, hmm...oh yeah. My friends and I went to Times Square on last Sunday which was on 10th of October 2010. xD To celebrate my birthday earlier which I am turning to 17. OLD. OLD. OLD.
We waited at the Bukit Jalil LRT station for the 'pokok dan rumput' about 35-40 minutes, finally...they arrived. The LRT station was so crowded probably it was weekends or it was a special day?

As soon as we reached TS, we dashed to the Theme Park, hoping not crowded. Luckily, NOT CROWDED. The guys said we should warm up first but their 'warm up exercise' was the DNA MIXER! And we girls were neither good too, we went to play the 360 degree pirate boat. D:
It was so spinning my head off. After that, we went to play bumper car and I WAS THEIR TARGET. Urghhh...I didn't play bumper car for a long time and I didn't even know how to drive, you know it was so damn embarrassing! My car was like reversing more than driving forward.
Don't laugh. Somehow, I thought I managed to drive but... I banged the divider and got stuck at there. T__T Luckily, no one saw me.

And then, we went to ride on a train at the children's playland. We were like the BIG CHILDREN, screaming and yelling along the journey to attract more children to join? xDD
Next, we sat the Crazy Bus. We again yelling and screaming, pretending how scary to bus was and the indian guy who was operating the bus...he didn't know want to laugh or cry. Hahaha. It was totally fun that day.

I am lazy to continue the story.
I am having a stupid rehearsal tomorrow and the day after tomorrow. Arghh..
I finally had a time to chat with that Darry Koay just now, he then offline-d. HE OFFLINE-D!
Grrrr...whatever.

I am signing off from here now. Bye

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I still couldn't believe that you're with her.

Hello People, what's up?
Wow, I just changed my blogskin few days ago.
And now, already 59 viewers?
To my beloved VIEWERS,
thanks for visiting to my blog.
If you drop by again next time,
do you wanna drop down some comment?
I would love to talk to you. :D
It's a part of my live talking to everyone. HAHA.

Well, I am just here to say thank you.
So, gotta go.

By the way, one last picture before i am off.I just love this, don't you? :)

Bad

Well, It can't be said that I am finally back.
Because after this post, probably I will take my leave again.
Punch me anytime if I do not update.
I know won't. :D

Saw that title?
It means that I am NOT REALLY GOOD these days.
Exams? It was really sucks.
Holidays? B-o-r-i-n-g
I began to admire those people who always get to travel everywhere during the holidays.
Tired isn't it?
But worth it.
My online friend came back last few weeks ago but still seldom chat. Sigh.

I am really sucks in Add Maths.
Since that paper, I feel like wanting to kill myself.
I am going to fail Add Maths again! I hope you will clap for me. D>:

Oh, well.
My friends and I went to Sunway to celebrate a friend's birthday.
It was NOT SO GREAT than I expected earlier.
We planned everything, but..
most of them went home early.
"I have dinner with my family."
"No transport."
"My mom booked a place in the restaurant."
I know, I know.
Dinner with family is definitely important if you don't wanna get kill.
Transport problem I always have it too.
Whatever problem was it, DIDN'T WE PLAN IT EARLIER THAT WE
WERE GOING TO HAVE DINNER TOGETHER?
Okay, I didn't blame you guys. Just, I felt unhappy.

Fine, leave that issue alone.
My story (Ghost Investigation Club) still not update YET.
I used 2 days to watch The Vampire Diaries season 1.
In the beginning, it was okay. I thought Elena would just stay together with
Stefan, BUT...
in the last episode, guess what?
SHE KISSED THAT STUPID CHILDISH DAMON!
Hell!
What's the difference compared to Katherine huh?
Nah, I am afraid to watch the next season.

KHR, chapter 293.
I know it's uh..that kind of feeling.
Huh? But it's not like my friend said "I cried."
LOL, maybe she cried because of her Yamamoto.

I think I'll just stop it here.
Ciao~